Kid Cudi has revealed that he once nearly killed himself with a drug overdose.
In an emotional extract from his memoir published by GQ, Cudi detailed some of his darkest times after originally finding fame.
He wrote: “I started working on Man on the Moon II a few months before I almost overdosed. The drugs were heavily involved in its creation; they put me in a dark mindset. I felt like I had demons latched on to me. I needed to soundtrack the moodiness I was feeling.
“At first, I was doing bumps, but I had quickly worked my way up to heavier and steadier quantities. I’d make lines that were as wide as my pinky and do them back-to-back throughout the day, every day. When I would get after it, I would really get after it. I was a maniac. That’s why that second album was so drug-riddled, because that’s what got me through. I wouldn’t have been able to do it if I didn’t have something to push me.”
Cudi later writes: “By the time I was writing Speedin’ Bullet 2 Heaven in 2015, I’d come back to that moment, but in a much more real way. We had rented a house in Big Sur to get the album done. After we’d finished a session, I’d be alone Googling exit bags. I was thinking about a way I could actually do it. I was plotting it. There’s a song at the end of Speedin’ Bullet where I say good-bye, and that was meant to be my final album. I was going to kill myself at the end of that album, or before it came out, or during that cycle. I was not planning to live that year. Not many people around me expected me to either.”
Cudi’s self-titled autobiography is set to be released on August 12.
The rapper has been open in the past about his issues with drug use and previously admitted he went to rehab for cocaine addiction in 2016.
He has also been forthright about his battles with mental health, mainly his struggles with depression and suicidal thoughts.
